In this season of sickness and exhaustion I am having a hard time being thankful for the little things. At night I feel guilty that I often just want to get the kids to bed so I can have some time for myself. During the day I rarely get a chance to sit down without having to get someone a drink, or an apple, or rinse a paci, or change a pair of wet underpants, or pick up a bowl of Cheerios for a bawling, devastated toddler- because spilling Cheerios is the END OF THE WORLD!
But then there are little things that remind me to enjoy this time. Tonight as Lovebug and I were brushing his teeth, it hit me that he wasn’t going to need my help much longer. That thought was like swallowing a bowling ball, not just a lump. And ironically enough, just as I was writing this, he came down from bed because he wanted some “popcorn”. He settled for a 5 minute cuddle with Mommy before being escorted back upstairs. 🙂
So many times I have a “can’t wait until….” mentality. (We interrupt this post because Lovebug is back again. This time he is not greeted as favorably, lol. As I was saying..) “I can’t wait until Lovebug does this, or doesn’t do that.” Ahem.
I really need to work on enjoying the present without fast forwarding to a point in my mind that will be easier or more enjoyable. The reality is that my life is filled with amazing moments every day, and I think I miss many of them because I see things as inconveniences. Another (much-needed) perspective might show me these times are just extra opportunities to show love to these little human beings, who God most graciously gave me.
I have a quote above my sink that reads:
“The days are long, but the years are short.”
Oh my, this is so true. It is such a good reminder to treasure every moment I am given with my children, even if those moments are not in the ideal scenarios. I am sure there will come a time where I would give anything to be able to get Lovebug one more drink of water, or to wake up with Lulu at 5 a.m. for a feeding.
Well….. maybe not at 5 a.m. 🙂